I'm not going to lie to you, I kind of gave up on NaNoWriMo

Yeah, yeah I know, I'm a quitter. But not really. I was just feeling really pressured and I wasn't enjoying writing so I took a break. I'm still working on it I'm just not worried about NaNo anymore. So I still may post it for you one day.
But anyway, I decided I'm finally going to finish my letters to Hogwarts challenge (it's about damn time).
I'll start tomorrow.
And this probably should have been part of that other, mostly useless, post.
Sorry again.
And thanks for reading.

P.S. I don't really know how to say this but as I said I only have two followers. If you ever see anything on my blog that you find interesting, tell someone about it. I'd love to talk to anyone that has an idea, opinion or just wants to talk. And you can remain anonymous if you wish, for whatever reason.
Just putting it out there.

From LiveJournal: What does NC stand for?

I'm working on a fanfiction. I decided I wanted to write one finally and an NC-17 one to be exact. Try my hand at writing a sex scene. I can just tell that'll be awkward...
And trust me, if you knew me, you'd probably be a little shocked.
Anyway, it's about Fleur whom I quite like and it takes place during Harry's fourth year. I'm putting Fleur in her seventh year and assuming that Beauxbaton starts school the same year Hogwarts does. We don't know this so I just figured that'd be the easiest way.
So if that bothers you, well get over it (or give me a better idea, I'm always open to those).
I'd tell you more but I can't. Because I have no idea where the story is even going. I'm flying by the seat of my pants here.
And I'll probably post chapter by chapter as is normal.
Okay I think that's everything.

Always,
The Mudblood Princess

I'm friends with Ginny Weasley

And I convinced her to start a Tumblr! If you want to talk to her, you can find her tumblr here.

Oh and I'll be talking about NaNoWriMo tomorrow. I'm pretty excited about it.

love you,
Alyssa

Dear Remus Lupin,

I've always felt bad for you. Not because of your "furry problem" but just because I think you went through so many things in your life. You lost one friend (James). Then learned that another friend (Sirius) killed another friend (Peter). I can only imagine what this would do to a person. Then the feeling of not fitting in fully with wizards because of your lycanthropy and not fitting in with werewolves because of your having tried to live among wizards. That must be difficult.
And then you found Tonks and I think you were afraid to let yourself be happy. And then you had Teddy which tortured you.
It was like no matter what you did you couldn't escape yourself. And then Teddy lost his parents in the Battle of Hogwarts. You didn't even get to know him.
All of this hardship from such a young age, how could we not feel sorry for you?
I know we miss you but I hope you're happy and with Tonks. And we will tell Teddy about how wonderful his father was.

Always,
Alyssa

Dear Sirius Black,

I know I'm probably going to get some negativity for this but I never really liked you as much as everyone else did. I don't know why.
Don't get me wrong. I loved that Harry finally had some semblance of family and a father figure. And I was happy that you were there for him. But you also annoyed me too. I didn't like that you were immature, you were stuck in the past, stuck on the injustice of your imprisonment. I understand but I still couldn't fully like you. There was just so many things about you I didn't like.
Nonetheless, I know you meant a lot to Harry and he meant a lot to you. And I was still sorry to see you die as it was like Harry losing his family all over again. I think it was that idea that cut me deeper than losing you specifically. After all, Harry had only known you for two years.
I'm sorry. But I hope you're happy nos wherever you are. You deserve it no matter what faults you may have had.

Always,
Alyssa

Dear Rubeus Hagrid,

It's feels so weird calling you Rubeus. You'll always be just Hagrid.
Hagrid, you've always kind of reminded me of the uncle that I've never really had but always wanted. You're a big teddy bear, not very bright but loyal and caring. And, what more could you ask for really?
I don't really know what to say here in this letter. Thanks, Hagrid for being a friend to me and a friend to Harry (even though you did send us into the forest looking for Aragog).
Thank you for supporting Dumbledore until the very end. And we forgive you for all the mistakes you've made.
We all love you, Rubeus Hagrid.

Always,
Alyssa

Dear Minerva McGonagall,

I think you may be my favorite professor at Hogwarts. I know on the outside you come across as severe and stern but underneath that you are caring, loyal and even willing to have a bit of fun.
I also think you have one of the most interesting backstories. Perhaps it's just because we've only known you the way you are and never really thought about what came before. It is a sad story but I think it made you stronger.
I admire your strength and your deep love for people important to you.
I'm not quite sure what I want to say to you. It's like talking to a stern teacher that you were always a little scared of but changed you for the better.
I appreciate all that you have taught us, professor.

Always,
Alyssa

Dear Albus Dumbledore,

Sometimes I've been very frustrated with you. Other times I've looked at you like the grandfather I never really had.
I do believe you were tortured by your past and the decisions you made. And I'm sorry about what happened between you and Grindelwald. But I also believe that you really did spend the rest of your life trying to atone for your past. A lot of people, I think, struggle to look for all the things you did wrong and look past all the great things you did. I don't really need to go into it. One need only look at your Chocolate Frog card.
In short, Albus, I see you as a conflicted and inwardly tortured character. But also incredibly good. I'd love to be able to talk to you. Even if only about woolen socks.

Always,
Alyssa

Dear Cedric Diggory,

You died so young. You wouldn't even have been considered an adult here in America. And you were killed for such an awful reason - simply because you weren't the one he wanted. A simple "problem", with a simple "solution".
I'm sorry we didn't get to learn more about you. In fact, most of our knowledge of you was imparted by Dumbledore after you were dead - fair-minded, a good student, and a fierce friend.
We will mourn the loss of a great Hufflepuff and a good friend as we have mourned the losses of so many others.

Always,
Alyssa

Dear Fred and George Weasley,

Let me start and say I'm sorry this is late. It was supposed to be written yesterday. But with that extra to ruminate, I still have no idea what I want to say.
Fred, I think I speak for everyone when I say we miss you. It wasn't fair that you had to die so soon. You were still so young. But rather than focus on the fact that you're gone we'll try to remember all the great things you've done.
George, I can only imagine how you're feeling and I'm sorry that you have to experience. But I hope that, while it may never truly go away, it does start to become manageable. Everyone is there for you, we all understand.
I think it'll be a long time before anyone forgets you guys. You'll be forever remembered as the ones who left school in an explosion of fireworks (terrorizing Umbridge and interrupting exams, no less). You'll be remembered as the twins that started a wildly successful joke shop in the middle of a war. We'll always remember you as the one's that made us laugh when we felt like crying, that reminded us not to take everything too seriously.
We can never repay either of you for that. We can only say thank you.
So, thank you.

Always,
Alyssa

Dear Luna Lovegood,

Luna, there is so much in my head, swirling around, that I'd love for you to know. But my brain doesn't seem to want to put it into words to put on paper. Perhaps Nargles are behind it. After all, you told us yourself that thy make your brain go fuzzy. But I'll give it a shot, anyway.
Luna are my favorite character. You are strange and bizarre in all the best ways. It was in Alice in Wonderland where Alice asked her father: "Am I mad?"
And her father said, "Yes. All the best people are."
You aren't afraid of being laughed at for what you believe. You are not at all bothered by not having friends (even though, of course, you do). And you're happy and serene and a good friend and sweet and just a pleasure to be around (or, at least, I assume so from reading about you; I wish I could meet you).
I suppose, if you read anyone else's letter, you'll see that I've said this to just about everyone but I really wish we were friends. You inspire me to be more myself and not care what people think because, really, what does it matter? I love that you believe in things that most people are sure don't exist. And I love that you are so dreamy and stuck in your own head.
I just think you would be a wonderful friend, I wish I could know for sure. But I suppose I'll just have to reread your adventures and the adventures of your friends.

Always,
Alyssa

Dear Ginny Weasley,

A lot of people have a lot of different opinions about you. Some peple love you, some think you're an unrealistic Mary Sue, some say you're a bitch and still others call you a slut. But I don't think you would have cared about any of that. You would have said screw them, as long as you had your friends and your family. And that is what I love about you Ginny Weasley.
When you couldn't have Harry,you didn't sit in a corner and cry like some female protagonists we know. You dated other people, you showed him what he couldn't have, but you never lost your childhood love for him. You never really gave up on him.
You're fiery and happy and a great friend. I'd love to be more like you, more willing to speak up for what's right, indifferent to what other people think of me. You make me stronger, Ginny.
While you have your faults, it's all the great things about you that shine through. That's why you are so well-liked, people love your personality and your liveliness. That's why I like you, anyway.
And, for the record, I don't think you are a Mary Sue, a slut or a bitch. Just a normal girl that happens to have magical powers.

Always,
Alyssa

Dear Neville Longbottom

I think in the beginning of the series, you were regarded as a humorous character - you were clumsy, forgetful, and very unconfident. And I think you were scared and unsure about the hat's desicion to put you in Gryffindor.
And now, 7 years later, we see that the sorting was right all along. We started to realize as the years went by, that you, Neville, were just as much a hero as Harry Potter.
I've always kind of wanted to be friends with you. At first, simply because you seemed like a sweet person, if a little bumbling. But then, I realized that you had taught me so much about self-confidence and what being a hero means. I still want to be friends with you, now because I would improve simply by being around you.
Another thing, I know if would have felt great to avenge your parents and kill Bellatrix, but then I think the satisfaction would have worn off and unease settled in. I'm glad you didn't have to kill anyone. I think it would have changed you for the worse. I'm just glad it didn't have to happen that way.
Neville, you are one of the characters I love the most. I see myself in you and what I'd like to become. And I see a wonderful friend.
Hannah is very lucky.

Always,
Alyssa

P.S. I'm sorry you're getting your letter a bit late. My owl, Juniper, was off hunting while I was writing and didn't come back until after midnight. But I suppose, better late than never, yeah?

Dear Draco Malfoy,

What exactly should I tell you? What do I want to say to you? I don't think you are a bad person. I don't think you ever were. I think you were confused and you trusted your parents. They knew what to do, they knew what was right. No one wants to think they're parents are bad people.
I think your story was one of confusion, frustration and questioning and yours was one of the most intriguing in the series.
I hope now you see what is important in life, more than wealth and blood status. And I hope you're happy, as everyone deserves that.

Always,
Alyssa

Dear Hermione Granger,

I could always see myself in you more than I could the other characters. I was also known to have my nose in a book and I could even come off as a know-it-all. I've never been told this but I'm sure I get on some people's nerves. I even have bushy hair.
So when I read about you getting your letter even though you had muggle parents and no idea about magic, I couldn't help but hope that it was a foretelling of my own Hogwarts acceptance letter. My letter didn't come. But I did keep reading about your adventures at Hogwarts. I didn't like Draco, especially when he was mean to you. I cried when Ron made you cry. I smiled like an idiot when you guys (finally) got together. It gave me hope for my own true love. And while I'll always ship you with Draco, you and Ron will always be my OTP.
Reading about you was like reading about myself. I was wrong before, I did get my acceptance letter. It came in the form of your story. Of the stories of your friends, and your enemies.
Thank you for showing me that I should never change who I am for anything, that I should never hide my intelligence, that there's a boy out there that will like my because I'm smart, and that girls can be a princess and a hero.
Without you, Miss Granger, I'm not sure who I would be. Thank you!

Always,
Alyssa

Dear Ron Weasley,

Ron, I think you were my first fictional crush. Well, I know you were. Sure Harry was a hero. But you were real. Or as real as a fictional character could be. You were funny, a little unsure, overshadowed, pressured. Everyone has felt the way you have.
From your first line, I fell in love with you. And I was so excited to read what you had to say next. Even now, a decade later, I consider your sacrifice at the end of Philosopher's Stone (I refuse to use the American title) one of the best scenes in the Potter series. Some of the best moments have been yours.
You were the guy that we could all relate to. The guy that we all wanted to be with (in my opinion, anyway).
And you made gingers cool.
You taught me that, even when the right thing is hard, we have to do it. You taught how to be a good friend and how to be a hero and for that, I can only thank you.

Always,
Alyssa

Dear Harry Potter,

I'd like to be able to tell you something dramatic. That without you I wouldn't be here or that reading your story kept me from my awful home life.
But the truth is I can't tell you that. I had a great childhood. I was an only child, my parents were still together and we lived in a good neighborhood. I was happy. And I thought it was always like that.
Harry, I started reading about you when I was 8 years old. Your abuse at the hands of the Dursleys was as new to me as the Wizarding World was to us both.
Over the years, you saw new horrors and so did I. No longer were we innocent children. We knew that there was true evil out in the world and that it often seemed as though good and justice had no hope of winning.
When I was in high school I started to become more and more depressed eventually taking medication for it.
And I went back to your books Harry and I saw all that you had to be upset about. I saw all the things that you could have fallen apart about. You could've given up long ago and we all would have understood. But you knew what you had to do. And you helped me to know that I had to go on as well. That there were much worse things happening than what I was going through.
You made my childhood magical and you made my transition from adolescence to adulthood just a little easier.
I doubt there will ever be another like you.

Always,
Alyssa

So there's this thing I want to do

There's this 20 day challenge I've been wanting to do for quite a while, but I just haven't gotten around to doing it. So I figured this would be the perfect time and place.
I'm posting this at 5:00 in the morning when I should be sleeping so I'll start later, at a normal hour.
Until we meet again...